Today I’m looking at two more of Kat McNally’s August Moon prompts.
The first is “Dreaming the Impossible – what are the stories that limit you?” “What would you be without those stories?”
That’s a fabulous topic. We all have our stories, so many stories, that keep us bound into limitation, into smallness, into shining less than who we truly are. Releasing these stories is something I’ve been focused on for a while, and truly these stories have loosened for me. I look forward to the day when I’m not holding on to them at all anymore – that I can honestly say I’m done with those distortions.
But in the meantime, here are my limiting stories:
- I’m simply not good enough, talented, wise, or have enough to offer. I honestly suspect we all carry our own version of this story, and it gets enculturated pretty early. I’m actually at a point where I can mostly laugh at this one, except it pops up and bites me on the butt occasionally. This is a nasty, hurtful, totally unhelpful story, based in judgment and separation.
- There isn’t enough time. Time is such a mystery to me, and part of me believes there is actually something I’m supposed to figure out about this which might explain my life-long fascination with the topic. But story-wise I lean into it heavily, sometimes to justify to myself why I haven’t accomplished all I want, and sometimes as a way to make myself feel incredibly bad for not figuring out how to manage it and my dance with it more gracefully.
- There’s a more perfect way to do it. Oh yes, this is a very limiting story, because I use it to postpone doing things thinking if they’re not tweaked into some unknowable state of perfection they’re actually not good at all.
- But I think the real, most challenging story I tell myself is simply a fear. That in order to get more of what I want, I risk giving up what I already love. My life is so wonderful and so blessed in so very many ways that I don’t want to give up any of it up. Yep, I want the advance guarantee that change will only move me into my preferred direction with no detours into the land of scary, unsure, uncontrolled, or holy-crap-what-did-I-do? This story is the one that makes me laugh the most and the one I keep myself most in a stranglehold over. Did I miss out on the teaching the day change was explained as good, expansive, totally awesome and never to be avoided? It certainly seems like I did!
Who would I be without these limiting stories? Big shiny me-full-out, creating and putting stuff out in the world unconcerned with how it’s received in general because I know that if it contains my true energy signature, me without the distorted illusions and stories, those truly in resonance with me will be able to find me because I don’t have myself hidden in a story. My true inner matryoshka doll is revealed!
The second reflection Kat invites us into is “How will you start the journey?” “What sort of trust would this require?”
Just do it. Do it! That means finishing the illustrations for a collaborative series of books I’m working on – even though my skill level isn’t what I imagine/hope it might be. That means seriously committing to a non-negotiable writing schedule because I have a bunch of books backed up inside of me wanting to get birthed. It also means keeping myself anchored in loving-kindness and self-compassion and willingness to forgive (and hopefully with laughter) the wobbles. But not letting that stop me.
And what sort of trust does this require? Trust that the support, guidance, and inspiration is there in every moment and I only need to call it in. I want to be a force to be reckoned with. Nothing, not even especially me, can stop me from shining full-out brilliant. I know with absolute certainty we each came here to play from the YES part of ourselves, and I have to trust that part is fully intact and more than ready to come out an play.
Now that you’ve had a peek at my limiting stories and my gentle plans to move forward, I’d love to hear yours. Do tell.