I’ve been talking a lot to friends and clients lately about the big energies I’m feeling as we head into the Friday’s equinox, which also heralds a New Moon and total solar eclipse. For me it feels as if we’re poised at the threshold of a doorway and the energies are gathering at our back, ready to propel us forward. I’m excited.
I’m also wanting to be intentional about what I carry forward with me.
For the last couple years part of my spiritual practice has been examining all the stories I carry – all the things I tell myself about who I am and what has happened in my life. My guidance has always been very clear – let go of the stories.
I can hear some of you gasping – what would that mean? Wouldn’t I lose the very things that are important to me? And I can very truthfully answer – no. You don’t lose the experience. You lose the emotional charge around it. And then the experience becomes pure. It’s like you get to see it wholly, without being pulled off to one side or one perspective or one chosen position for viewing.
But it’s also true we’re very invested in our stories. We think they give us meaning. We’re reluctant to let them go, and especially the ones we use to define ourselves.
But consider what it would be like to simply not tell your story any more. To get more and more free of the ways you think you have to define yourself because of the stories you tell about who you are. Can’t you feel the freedom in that?
I think that’s really what it means to be in the now moment. Not tied to a past perspective, nor projecting yourself forward into the imagined future, but simply being who you are in this moment, authentically meeting the moment in your current state of being.
That’s been on my mind a lot as I prepare to step over the threshold into Spring.
I smiled when I found this quote today from Graham Greene:
“A story has no beginning or end; arbitrarily one chooses one moment of experience from which to look back or from which to look ahead.”
Or perhaps we can just let the story go and just stay current with who we are.