I’m finding Kat McNally’s August Moon prompts for reflective writing very helpful and curiously timely as well. Today’s question is about time and inner space. How will you make time work for you? And this is asked in particular around balancing work and ensuring you have enough time for self.
This is a perfect question for me as I’m in one of those reconsidering places in my life – looking at my habits and routines; feeling a bit out of sorts with myself and hunting for the places that rub; looking with new eyes at how I function because suddenly it’s so clear to me I’ve picked up stuff that’s not mine and not helpful to me and it all needs a sort out.
So Kat’s questions are helpful. But they’re also the kind that require pondering, and that’s a way into looking at how I am in the world.
Because it seems I always favor the more windy circuitous route, as I’m reflecting on this question I’m led to think about the blogging community who celebrates T stands for Tuesday
One of the things my guidance is continuously encouraging me to do is find the spaciousness around things To be clear this doesn’t really have anything to do with doing less, but rather allowing for a buffer of grace around things. Yes I know even as I write it, it’s not a concept that lends itself to clear written explanation. Like so many things you have to feel into it.
But this morning as I was pondering Kat’s question, looking for spaciousness around it, I decided to sit on the porch with a pot of Honey Yuzu tea and my journal and see what unfolded.
One of the challenges for me because I don’t work a 9 to 5 job is that I find it harder to hold boundaries around when I am working. It’s marvelous in the sense that I’m not bound to any particular schedule, but that also means it’s hard to find the off switch and you’re as likely to find me working at 9pm as 9am. But I don’t think I’d change that. Freedom and self-direction are hugely important to me, as is being able to mix things up. A couple hours in the studio and then a couple hours of client work, a sit on the porch and perhaps a few chapters read, and then listening for what calls to me next. In so many many ways my life is wonderful. Which believe it or not is what makes change particularly difficult for me. I stumble when I think of all the ways I want to biggify because I don’t want to give up any of the wonderfulness I have for an unknown I don’t have.
And that in a nutshell is what I’m up against in one form or another. And so I have to lean into it. But never directly because then I just make myself crazy and paralyzed. My leaning in is the circuitous dance of the crab on the beach – I approach it all sideways.
So today sitting on the porch I thought about the clouds and how they’re in this huge container of the sky moving along, shifting easily, joining forces with other clouds, then breaking off an meandering on their own, creating wondrous images that last for a limited time and then are gone, but the possibilities of other wondrous creations are there in every second.
And there it was. I decided being a cloud was a helpful metaphor and something I’m going to play around with.
And because my mind is always working at making connections, my next thought was about cloud tea. Tea grown at great elevations in the Himalayas amid the clouds and mists. And that thought made me remember the charming children’s book Cloud Tea Monkeys. I need to dig that out and give it another read.
Now tell me about you. How do you balance work and non-work time leaving yourself enough energy for what you love? Are you a member of the Cloud Appreciation Society? Take time for tea? Do tell – you know I love to hear.